Split Personalities.?.?.

Left a note, to say how difficult life is when her illness turns her into someone she cannot get away from. Herself.

'You won't turn away when someone else is gone'
When her 'other self' returns, he is the one she knows will always be there for her.

'sorry bout the attitude I need to give when I'm with you. But no one else will take this shit from me'
She can be either side of herself around him and she's apologizing to him for the hateful, more blunt.. obnoxious self that she becomes @ times.

'Pull out some hope for me, it's been a long day. Always. Ain't that right?'
= Medication that is supposed to keep her stable but only makes it to where she is on the verge of insanity between feeling as though both personalities are nearly conflicting with one another internally.-'Just keep you trembling'

'I'm surprised that you'd believe in anything that comes from me.
I didn't hear from you or from someone else.'-
Without it having to be said out loud, she knows that she is an unreliable, deceitful
kind of person, depending on the day/personality.

Then it seems that the other personality is beginning to shine thru and states how he is so ho-hum/'set in life' and it's too bad society's standard are what he goes by so that he may get ahead in life one day, but she's gotta go bec 'they're waiting' ...
'so what?? , So, long' -so what if that's you but I gotta go have my fun now.

'I cant get myself to go away'
- Literally , cant control the other side of herself and can only express the dislike for her ways and apologize for the errors while she's this way.

'oh, god I shouldn't feel this way'
this is definitely a hard way to live and most don't have to go thru this in life. It's a 'why me,god?' type of statement.

-DDB