About the ''Woman'' that John fell madly in love with, along with the mysterious part of her [the light and the dark] that he also saw in himself, in distanced from his Mom, that he wanted so badly to be loved and understood by his Woman all together. She was a challenge for him to love her and know her. But at times, when compromising on his principles, he should have kept the ''veil'' down over her head and face a little longer for not being seened on t.v too much. Compare to the other ''Woman'' that he should've raised the ''veil'' higher to take a better look at her. Maybe because she did and might've had truly loved him more.